Who’s in your head?

What if 90-99% of the thoughts in your head were not yours!

Would that freak you out?

Would it be too hard to believe?

What exactly does that mean?

Regardless of your belief systems lets explore the possibility.

What does that mean?

As we think, we hear our thoughts as a voice. Right? Right! But what if those thoughts or that voice is not always ours. It isn’t our thought. It isn’t our voice – even though it sounds like it, as it is the same most of the time.

Who is it then?

Billions of people have passed over throughout history, all of them now in another dimension, for now let’s call it the spirit world – Our spirit lives on after our physical body dies. So now there are billions of spirits that can talk to us just like the billions that are still on Earth in a physical sense.

Why do they do this or pretend to be us?

Some spirits miss the Earth and the life and experiences that they had while there were here (including good and bad habits). Some we invited to talk through us in our sleep state – they are like friends we hang out with but are in spirit form. Just as we build rapport with people here we do the same on a spiritual level. Some guide and teach. Others like to control us to get the experiences they miss and act through us. They can purely be drawn to us due through similar ‘addictions’ or desires that we have. Through our choice to avoid ‘life’ opens the door to spirits living through us from time to time, hence the term, “he/she isn’t herself today”. We can also become ‘overcloaked’ (usually happens after a traumatic event) where we totally flip out and another spirit takes control. This is noticeable as great wisdom beyond the normal means of that particular individual or the opposite end of the scale and being totally reckless – or anywhere in between.

How can we avoid this?

The choice to be grounded at all times (in one’s body), so that you can experience the highs and lows of life and not run away when things get tough. Work through fears about spirits. Have a desire to see/feel what is truly there in a spiritual sense. Ultimately: Connect to God and self – have a desire to get to know yourself with God.

Did you know you can do this to other people on the Earth as well?

Generally in our sleepstate, but can be while ‘out of our body’ while awake, we visit others and act through them as through they were us – we may see it as a dream. We can be channelled by a psychic the same way spirits can be. Interesting hey!

Schizophrenic, bi polar and manic depressant conditions and even dementia are real – real spirits conversing to or through these people, sometimes more than one at a time. Mental conditions are not just due to a chemical imbalance in the brain (why is the imbalance there??). Yes these people may seem crazy to most, but they can be helped.

That is a brief look at the subject.

Something to think about!


Simple Choices

I think back to my life before I began to desire to know God, without the religious connotations, and I marvel at my growth however small it my seem to me at times, it is growth nevertheless. I have spoken before on how truth can change as I grow and I see it more often. And once understood by the heart, it is noticeable in the world around me.

A few posts ago I talked about “The Divine Connection” I used words that made emotional processing sound like something you have to work at – and that is not the only post I said it in either. I now know this not to be so. The Divine Connection is about surrender and experiencing that surrender, as in those moments we experience – feel our self and God.

I believe there is great misconception about what God is. It would be easier to describe what God isn’t: Despite what the bible may say; God will not pick sides, tell anyone what to do – as we have free will to choose as we please. God will not punish us or send his/her wrath or angels to smite us. There is no vengeance or coercion. There is no favouritism and God will not do for us that which we should be doing for ourselves; God is not there to do it for us. (S)He will not save us – and neither will Jesus. Through our connection to God we will learn how to save ourselves! This was the message that Jesus came to share with humanity over 2000 years ago – and is still trying to share with those who choose to listen.

God will however, love us and answer prayers of the soul (not of the mind). For God so loved us that (s)he created laws that govern the universe and everything in it. The laws of ’cause and effect’ are a great example and work with the other laws. If we live within the laws in a harmonious way the effect is joy/happiness and if we live disharmoniously or break these laws the effect will be pain/unhappiness. Don’t believe me, look at the law of aerodynamics: ever known anyone who jumped/fell from the top of a skyscraper and came out unscathed? The laws don’t choose if you are good or bad – they are what they are. Or how many times have you overeaten knowing in advance that the result will be pain/discomfort. The laws are not punishment: They are boundaries of love and by crossing them we choose to not love (hate) ourselves or others in that moment. It’s not God that punishes us but we ourselves through our own ignorance and defiance. A sequence of simple choices can change our life.

It’s about love, it always has been. We can choose to remain ignorant and defiant or we can choose to stop hurting ourselves. It is up to us as individuals to stop our own suffering. It is our choice to love…. or to hate.

Response to A Blogger’s Quandary

Ta-da! I am here. Yes I am still writing and I would have continued to write but not necessarily in the format of this blog.

Whether you have noticed or not, I try not to sensor my material of the emotional stuff that is currently part of me. My intention is to help people, to inspire them and to open up their minds to a different belief system that they may be used to. Previously I got caught up in avoiding my law of attraction rather than just tell my story, share my beliefs and let the reader be the reader.

Over the past few days I have been pondering about my life purpose, my gifts, my passions and my values. I had never before thought about amalgamating them. It’s a good thing apparently as it will guide me to my “Divine purpose” and I definitely want to know what that is!

In my heart I already know my Divine purpose, I have known for a while. I even presented a workshop in early 2013 which touched on it. It is because of my life purpose that one of my desires is “to learn to love myself”. It is preparing me to receive higher guidance and to the information which will be presented in future. These lessons in self-love in turn reveal more of my gifts while opening up my mind and softening my heart so that I learn even more about myself and life. Gone are all of the pretences, all of the facades and any illusions (a few more to go yet).

This is as real as it gets folks! Live now and don’t be afraid to learn about where it is you are going after you pass from this world, as this physical life is but a blink of an eye in the totality that is your existence.

I am once again inspired to inspire others! Follow me or follow me not, that is your choice. My journey continues whether there is one reader, millions or none. Cheers.

P.S. Please feel free to comment on any of my posts. I’d love to hear your thoughts.

A Blogger’s Quandary

In 2013 I wrote a number of posts for this blog but I didn’t post any of them and if you notice the date of the previous one you will notice a gap between then and now.

There is more than one reason to why I haven’t posted any of them. One of them was because of how others were misinterpreting my words. Is it my duty as a writer to have others to understand what I write or do I let them get their own meaning out of it? Heck, I wanted others to know what I meant by my writing and how dare they twist it so! Then on the other hand I remember reading passages in books which gave me insightful information and then years later when reading the same passage getting a totally different meaning from it. Maybe that is the sign of a good writer, for people to get some benefit out of it regardless of where they are on their journey.

Another reason was because I was becoming disillusioned by other writers and how I believed they were leading their readers down the “wrong path”.

As you may already see there were all kinds of emotions coming to the forefront. There was guilt, anger, shame and regret (not posting something and then someone else posting a similar story).

I originally began this blog to keep track of my growth over time but, at some point last year something changed. I could say it was fear but I feel it was due to my new belief that my growth didn’t necessarily need to be spread out over cyberspace. I am beginning to see that growth is a personal journey and I don’t need a moment by moment recollection for all to see.

Someone once told me that I didn’t have to share all of the gifts I received and I now know what that means. By sharing them without first enjoying them and letting them grow within me was like squandering lotto winnings. Some gifts not only need treasuring but also need to be nurtured to let them develop, to fully understand them and gain the most from them. Then and only if I wanted to, I could share them with others. It’s about discerning what is there to be shared and what is to be kept close…. just because.

I am still passionate about writing but at this point I am not sure in what form I would like to publish my life to the world. Am I ready to be a published writer? I almost feel like a fraud as I make statements that are what I believe to be my truth and my opinions, and not necessarily based on any credible facts. And if it was, why haven’t I bothered to note down its source:  And how credible is that source? It may well simply be someone else’s truth and opinion, and not based on fact at all. I am blessed with moral obligation to not lead my readers astray. I don’t want to merely repeat something I have read or heard, but rather to write through experience, to write my story. I’m not sure if I have honestly done that in the past. I am also over writing advice and telling people how to do things and how to live their life. I just want to write it as it happened and share “what I did”.

I am at a turning point, a time of transition. I ask myself……..

“Does my story need to be told at all?”

Having Your Cake and Eating it – Or Choosing Something Better

“To truly have your cake and eat it is to let go of the idea that you need to have your cake and eat it.”

I have noticed people have gurus and search for answers outside of themselves because they aren’t prepared to accept help from the only Being that knows them better than anyone else. They don’t even acknowledge that this Being is real or that they can have a relationship with him&her. Either through fear or through ignorance due to choice based on their current beliefs systems. They hold onto untruths due to what they have been told throughout their lives or read from some ancient out-dated manuscripts, charts and ways of life. These same manuscripts etc which were written by confused, yearning men and women just like themselves; all putting their own interpretation on what they believe is true.

I believe there is only one Being who knows ALL truth. Most will not know this Being unless they are prepared to separate themselves from him&her. To see, feel and know this Being as an individual, as the true parent and creator of all of us! There is nothing random or chaotic in the creations of this parent, only the sin (missing the mark) and error that we as individuals bring to this world.  It is through our own ignorance and choice that we see destruction in a perfect world. We create, war, famine, pestilence etc. through our fear, greed and hatred. We create our own pain and dis-ease. It is through our choices alone that disorder, chaos and mayhem exist.

 Most of us are not even interested in stopping for long enough to observe this for ourselves! We shape the world around us through our arrogance of being at the top of the food chain. This arrogance is what brings destruction to an otherwise perfect world. Our hatred manifests itself in everything around us. Our world reflects the hate and fear we have. Animals kill & eat animals; they retaliate and destroy life because WE destroy life. The greater our fear and hatred the more turbulent nature gets. And yes it has been going on since the dawn of time.

But who am I to preach these words? I am but an observer who has desired to know the truth, see the truth and feel the truth! I don’t need you to agree with me or heed my words. My blog is a record of my growth. It is up to you to choose to read it and/or to believe it.

As I see it, we can continue to be arrogant and remain ignorant or gain wisdom through desiring truth. Why else have you bothered to read thus far let alone even come to this blog! There must be something in you that has sparked some curiosity besides a desire to discredit me! Hopefully it is because you desire to know a bit more about me!

The world is also full of wondrous things, true reflections of our great and loving creator. I believe it is our Creators desire that we learn more about him&her. And to hopefully desire to find out the truth about our creation and our purpose to bring forth more wonder, beauty and bliss to this world. That begins with knowing what is truly loving to all concerned.

I am comfortable with knowing when I am wrong or have harmed others, which includes myself. I accept change so that I may become more loving and have more love- in every way possible. And this I will learn from the one and only Being that knows more than I ever will. Hence I will always have more to learn if I desire it so. Love is as infinite as this Being. And yes I desire to follow in the footsteps of such greatness and love, and also to become an infinite being as a consequence. For where there is love there is no room for fear or hatred. They cannot exist in the same space at the same time.

So what is in your heart and is what is in your heart consistent? Are you one of the millions of hypocrites that change their beliefs to suit the situation and the crowd you are with? So again, what is in your heart? What are you prepared to give up to have this Divine Love?

I know I have lived in fear and have had hatred within my soul (and still do), but I have made a choice. I have executed my desire to know who I am and to know my creator, my true parent. I also know of the love of which I speak and I know it is there for everyone. It’s about admitting we can be wrong about anything and everything so that we can be open enough to seek truth beyond the known and the common. It’s your choice to seek this love or to sit there and have your chocolate cake, cup of java or glass of wine. It is through your choice that you will know the truth of which one is truly best for you.  So ponder this and let me know what you think: “To truly have your cake and eat it is to let go of the idea that you need to have your cake and eat it.”

If it’s happening to me – It’s because of me!

Have you ever wondered why bad things keep happening to you? Why one minute things are going sweetly and the next contains hurt or tragedy? WE can have control over whether life beats us up or builds us up through the choices we make and through the lack of choices we make. We can go through life and blame it or others for all of the unpleasant situations that come to us or WE can take charge and change the parts of self which draw these situations to us. I totally believe that everything happens to us whether pleasant or unpleasant due to what is in the depths of our heart and soul. Through changing what is in our soul we change what events life brings us. It’s quite simple and I believe that until you personally realise this truth for yourself and act on it, life will continue as it has up until now.

The title of this post says it all: If it’s happening to me – It’s because of me! Some may balk at this and to some this may seem farfetched or laughable, but if you took the time to experiment with this as I have, you would be greatly surprised and maybe even learn a few things about yourself. This to me has been the biggest and best lesson that I have learned thus far. I share this in hope that it may help and inspire others on their path.

You see, I was one of these people who were on the “rat wheel” for most of their life, running around in circles and repeating the same things over and over again. Occasionally stopping but eventually hopping back on that wheel or a similar one. And then I learned this, “To change something, you have to CHANGE something”. This is not always something physical. Our beliefs about ourselves, life and everything in it are all driven by our heart and soul. Our mind is a tool which we can choose to help access the truth of what is in our soul.  When the two work together we can create our life in harmony with all other life. But be warned, commencing this journey to self may reveal that the truth is not all we want it to be. We can choose to ignore what we uncover or we can acknowledge it, accept that “this is who I am right now” and then make a decision to release the parts which bring pain and suffering. How do you know the difference? If the result is joy – keep it, if the result is pain – change it. One thing to remember though is that the results of some actions can take many years to manifest, so I recommend the use common sense in your discernment.

 One of the first things I changed was my beliefs about what I considered loving and this may be something you will also need to consider. The soul is like a storage box. It is filled with all sorts of stuff, generally stuff we don’t need, stuff that gets old, mouldy and creates pain. For new stuff to come in, old stuff has to be taken out, then there will be room for new things – new beliefs, feelings and understanding. Do some spring cleaning on your belief system, not just your house and surroundings!

In the past like many others, I have chosen to compromise and find an acceptable means of indirectly harming myself, rather than opting to discover my own personal power and honouring it. This is where most low self-esteem issues and lack of self-worth originates from. Have you ever considered that the reason why you feel unworthy or have low self-esteem is due to not honouring and loving yourself? How well do you know yourself – really know yourself? What are your beliefs and your values and do they help you or hinder you from growth? Do you ever get bored, apathetic or just don’t know what you want from life? All of these are from not knowing and dishonouring self. Are you happy with the result that years of moulding by parents, friends and society have created – the “you” that you know now? Have you ever wondered why you are the way you are? Or do you just accept that life will continue bringing you pain and hardship because that’s how it has been for generation after generation?

Let’s look at what a lack of self-worth can create. It creates anger, fear, bitterness, greed and a desire for power. If we knew the truth about ourselves and then through desire found our own personal worth and love which brings its own power, we wouldn’t have wars or have a desire to harm others. Self-love and personal power bring inner peace and opens us up to the gift of abundance in all avenues of life. We are then also in a space of acceptance of all people regardless of what part of the journey they are on. Tolerance brings compassion and forgiveness.

Generally speaking, I see daily how society manipulates the population to believe that doing for ourselves is selfish, If you look back at what you were taught from a young age, were you told that you HAD to share whether you wanted to or not? Regardless of the generosity of sharing, you were generally not given the choice and then subsequently punished for not following those instructions.  So now instead when you don’t share you feel guilty, ashamed or are compulsive in some way. But then after several generations many may be selfish, all due to emotions of lack within in some shape or form. ANY feeling of lack is about a lack of self-awareness, self-acceptance and self-love, all of which come from not knowing self. But do most of us question the choices and actions that we make? Is there anyone out there besides me that desires to know the truth of who they REALLY are and why they are that way and most of all how to change?

It is quite ironic that the same society that taught us not to be selfish and in turn helped create our lack of self-worth, then in the same breath, uses these false beliefs we have in ourselves to sell us products and merchandise that helps cement these errors into our psyche. Society feeds on our beliefs and emotions of unworthiness through want and greed, and then makes a fortune from it. It is profitable to have a population that feels bad about themselves, that doesn’t want them to find out the truth or to start being responsible for themselves. This same population will believe anything that is told to them rather than find the truth for themselves. Someone is getting rich off of your ignorance – some call it consumerism. Our emotional state is so easy to manipulate and it’s not only psychologist that have this knowledge. So why not choose to change your emotional state?

After a rather large sigh I can add that regardless of what I say, some people will choose ignorance, maybe because it’s easy or because it’s all they have ever known. They may merely not be aware that there are other options or that they themselves allow this manipulation to go on. Whether you choose to bury your head in the sand or just say some angry words, you don’t actually change where it counts the most and that starts with YOU. Change yourself and the world changes around you. There are many quotes out there with this wisdom, it’s not new and you don’t have to listen to me.

At the end of the day it is all up to you, because it is always only ever about you. Your life happens because of everything that comes from your soul and your soul is emotional. If you are changing your mind and nothing changes significantly, then try changing your heart and feel the difference. It is always your choice.

Above I have mentioned honouring self and I really believe this is crucial part of self-love but there is an honour that is greater still. To conclude I wish to add one final note and all I ask is that you simply be open to the possibility. As with the concept of experimenting with honouring self, consider honouring God as someone separate to self and see what that brings you. Give it a try, what have you got to lose?

I believe that as we learn to love and honour ourselves, all honour and glory should be to God. For as we did not create ourselves, our life journey is always to seek the truth of whom we are so that we may one day hopefully desire to know our Creator. At this moment we are but an image of the Divine and to become the substance we need to develop a desire for it. It isn’t something that we are born with or that will naturally come to us. There needs to be a conscious desire for it.

And once you start this part of your journey you will learn something new that goes against what I wrote above about having control. Involve God in your journey and you will discover that to get closer to God you will have to learn how to relinquish that control . . . . Confused?  Now that is a topic for a future post.

Even though I may not put this on the bottom of all of my posts, all comments are welcome and if you do, please remember this is my journey and you don’t have to agree with me or walk with me.

I Heart Me – Becoming Real

Have you ever asked yourself why you HAVE to be better? WHAT do you have to be better than? WHO do you have to be better than? And what do you base your scale of “better” on? These are all signs of not loving self totally. I LOVE MYSELF WARTS AND ALL! It’s not about making yourself better and then loving yourself. It is about loving yourself here and now as you are. WHO cares that you have grey hair or look ‘homely’ or have acne or varicose veins? Why do you have to change before you love yourself? And WHO told you that having grey hair or looking homely was a BAD thing? These are ALL beliefs we have picked up through our environment and our family. It seems to be really hard for most of us to look in the mirror and say, “Ok, I have bags under my eyes.” Then if we REACT to what we see due to our current beliefs, we then choose to change our diet or get out the makeup and cover it all so we can’t see it and also so no one else can see it – so no one can see us as we really are.

We fear being judged or being seen less-than others. We fear we won’t be loved or accepted in this ego and material driven world. We hide behind our False Expectations/Emotions Appear Real! Can you see the meaning of this? False EXPECTATION! We believe we are going to receive a certain reaction or response from others through past experience or from information that we have absorbed as truth from the outside world – from the media, from television and from others who live in fear AND somehow that has become important to us. We all live in fear of something – every one of us! It is due to fear that we create a false self to show the world. And watch out anyone who dares to uncover the truth. This façade self becomes us! We cover up so much of our real self that the façade is all we know. It keeps us safe, loved, wealthy and beautiful – or so we believe.

The only way to know the truth about what I say is by letting go of that which makes you safe, loved, wealthy or beautiful. Who would be happy within themselves if everything was taken away from them right now, even but for a moment for the sake of this discussion? We are so afraid of kmowing that we have fear and that is why we create the façade. We show the world “I am not afraid”.

So we are afraid of our fear and we create this façade,so let’s take covering our fear as the example: “I am afraid for my life. Why am I afraid for my life? Is it not because I truly feel vulnerable, powerless, insignificant or possibly worthless, depending on the situation?” What is the best way to feel the opposite of these things? What will make us feel powerful, significant and worthy? Consider why there is so much violence in the world? It is due to the lack of love and understanding we have for ourselves and others. We choose to live in fear or hide our fear. We hide our fear behind anger. Depending on how fearful we are as to the level of our anger. It could merely be slight annoyance or frustration. Example, we have news about our life to share with a friend. We start to tell our story and our friend seems less than interested. We now may feel some annoyance because we are not being listened to. We continue with our story and this friend seems more distracted or less interested. “Are you listening to me?” “Come on listen” or “Let me finish”. Do any of these sound familiar? This is the perfect case of wanting others to listen to us or to hear us. Our fear of not being listened to or wanting to be heard that dictates our reaction of anger (annoyance/frustration) all because we do not want to feel our fear and whatever is driving that fear – our false beliefs and emotions. We want to keep our façade so we get annoyed. If someone stops meeting our addiction we start to limit interaction or completely remove them from our life.

We have lived this way for so long that it is part of our nature. So now if we have lived this way for so long, would we want to give it up? Who wants to feel what is truly there? Who wants to know the reality of their soul? Who wants to know that they at the deepest level feel unloved, unworthy, feel like nothing, like no one or alone? We are so busy trying to hide the truth that we create new truths which are all part of the façade. We create affirmations that convince us that we are loved and worthy. We create relationships that are based on the facade so we can live a seemingly peaceful and happy life.

Do we truly believe that if we felt loved at our core that we would need an affirmation? So then why do we hide the truth of feeling unloved or unworthy, or of feeling lonely and insignificant? It is so much easier to live in the façade. It is through living in this façade that we create addictions. Addictions are the opposite of how we truly feel deep at our core. Addictions all have expectations behind them. Want to know if you have an addiction, look for an expectation and there is the truth. For example if “I feel unloved I can create the façade of feeling loved. I find a partner who desires the same thing, to feel loved. So if I don’t want to go out and work so then he goes out and becomes the bread winner. So now I can be the princess and be pampered and in return he can providing security, wealth and love. In return I then cook, clean, treat him like a king (which includes sexual favours) and instantly we have a seemingly beautiful existence. To many this would seem “normal”. I expect certain things from him and visa versa, here is a relationship based on addictions created due to fear”.

But what happens when the desires of one or both change? The love stops flowing or the money or the sex, what happens then? The addiction is now not being met and chaos breaks out. The bartering system of the facade stops functioning and the relationship breaks down. So then both parties are feeling less than loved by the experience. But was it truly LOVE that was driving their relationship or the neediness for love: the lack of love that they both feel deep within their core. Many people believe love hurts. It is the lack of love that they have deep in their core that causes the pain. It is the loss of the illusion of love that makes us feel hurt. And if we go back to the beginning of this discussion, it is from the lack of love of ourselves that drives this lack of love throughout our whole life.

It is easier to create a façade and live in the addictions and expectations we place on ourselves and others than to face the truth of how unloved we feel at our core. To truly heal we need to heal from our core and not from the façade. Start looking at who we really are and acknowledge what we find, begin the path to acceptance and then change the amount of love we have for ourself by discarding the façade. Show the real Self to the world piece by piece and uncover all of the addictions that create anger, which merely cover our fear – the fear of seeing and knowing our true self.

No one wants to be told they are unlovable, but if that is true at our core, why not confront it rather than hide from it. We don’t want to know the truth. Pain comes from the avoidance, resistance and denial of our true Self. Our world is working hard to keep us in the façade: We have to fit in or we will be ostracized, humiliated, classed as crazy or too sensitive and possibly even harmed. These are all through our fears of wanting to fit in, to be loved. We dare not go against the norm. We can rebel against governments, rules and unjustness, but what about rebelling against that which can really make a difference to Self – for Self. Rebel against the façade that we currently believe to be real! And when I say rebel, I mean to acknowledge the anger, fear and pain that is within us.

Have courage and surrender to our true Self, break through and be real! Feel the pain we have created. Feel the dis-ease of our beliefs. Become truly free! The love we can have for ourselves is unlimited and extremely powerful. When we shed our fears, we tap into this power and begin to know who we are and then for the first time in our lives WE BECOME REAL.

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