Life in the Matrix

For those who have seen the movie “The Matrix” would agree with me that the Matrix itself is a fictitious construct and not the “real world”. The characters effectively “wake up” through desiring truth. But if you follow the rest of the story, it is one based on a struggle for survival – pretty much what they woke up from. So did they actually escape? Their truth changed but nothing effectively got better. To me it portrays life as being one fight after another! Does it have to be that way or is there truly a way out?

To the best of my ability, I will be using some computing terminology to illustrate my meaning. The Matrix according to me:

I believe the Matrix is the real world, it is our belief of how to live in it that is flawed. Simply, the Matrix is the world we live in through our belief systems and emotional state

The general understanding of life in the Matrix is a falsehood that has been passed down through the generations. Each generation teaching the next how to create and live within the Matrix thus adding to the deception. As soon as we are in the womb we automatically absorb the knowledge of the Matrix through the understanding that our mother has of it, through her own experience and that which has been passed down to her. We also absorb information from outside of the womb, from the surroundings of the Matrix itself and its inhabitants: So by the time we are born there is a heap of programming already within us as to what is expected of “Living in the Matrix”.

Our early childhood years is where more data enters us through being part of the Matrix and helps to reinforce the specifics of the program. As we get older we begin to live life through how we understand the Matrix works and start creating our life.

On top of that, we are oblivious to the fact that the Matrix has a Creator who lovingly designed it and had different intentions for the use of it. The Creator’s benevolence gave us all free will to do whatever we want in the Matrix (with our life), and a part of that was that the Creator would not (and does not) interfere with our decisions.

The Creator being the most loving of beings also wanted us to be happy and thus put in place laws to hopefully help us understand when we are doing anything to hurt ourselves, others and constructs within the Matrix: Acts that would cause unhappiness (pain and suffering) and show us the errors within the program. Unfortunately, most of us don’t see the warning signs: They start off subtly and gradually get more apparent, like a malicious virus corrupting more and more data files. Due to the generational data passed down to us, as well as our own choices and actions, our understanding of these signs is misinterpreted by us, distorted or overwritten by the numerous viruses within the Matrix.

The Creator ultimately created a (virus free) platform where we could learn about ourselves and other things within the Matrix and about love. The Creator also gave us the ability to choose to do whatever we wanted to: to live in the lie of our current understanding of the Matrix or to desire the truth as the Creator knows it: that our false thoughts, beliefs and unfelt emotions that are the virus; and that we can live without struggle.

How? We would have to seek out the Creator, to desire to know about living in truth – as the Creator does. But many of us won’t. Why? Because that would mean being willing to deconstruct ALL of the corrupted programming that we currently live our lives by, including our beliefs of who or what the Creator is. To let go of everything we believe is the purpose of the Matrix and how we live in it.

I’m game! . . . Are you?

A Planet in Crisis

Have you noticed of late that the whole planet seems to have taken a crazy-pill! Yep, the whole planet. It is true that storms, floods, famine and drought have been recorded throughout history, but have you observed that there are weather events happening in places that have never had such events before; the intensity and frequency of these out-of-place weather events is becoming more widespread. On top of that, millions of children around the world die every year – still. We cut down rainforests to put cattle on, killing several eco systems for the sake of supporting one. Animals, wild and domesticated now display behaviour that is out of character and strangely resembles the behaviour of the creatures at the top of the food chain (humans). Intolerance and violence amongst different cultures and even the sexes have exacerbated. Retaliation, victimisation and other abhorrent behaviour is recorded and placed on social media and viewed as comedy. And that is just to name a few.

So before asking the question, “What can we do about it?” we need to first acknowledge that there is a problem and see that we are all contributing to it. Yep, you heard me right. We build huge emotional castles to protect us from the big wide world and fill it with anything that helps us feel comfortable and secure. And if we believe in the law of attraction, it only stretches as far as our backyard and only see the good things it provides us and call it happiness. We ignore what is going on around us in the world and in the environment.

We either A) sit back and wonder why there are so many nut-jobs and wackos in this world or B) verbalise our opinions all over social media; it is easy to sprout our opinions all over the internet from the comfort of our castle-of-security. We think by doing that we are taking action. Sorry but that is not action, that is reaction! Action comes from breaking down the walls of the padded castle that we believe is protecting us: In reality it keeps us blind to the truth that we have all contributed to it in some way.

Hmm, what can we do about it? Let’s look at history. History dictates that we should use violence or force. Yes, let’s blow the crap out of all of the innocent people who are in the country or culture we have a discrepancy with. Then we say “We won the war.” Until someone else has an opinion different to our own. Let’s have another war and then another until there is no one else left to have war with.

When will we learn that violence begets violence! It starts with a smack to the face, then a punch in the head, a knife to the gut and a gun to the brain and if that doesn’t work go get your bazooka or missile launcher!

How did it all come to this? We fail to see the connection of what is going on ‘out-there’ to what is going on ‘in-here’ – in our hearts. We are so in our heads – thinking and thinking, that we have lost all sense of moral reasoning. Let’s think away our problems! We fail to realise that we have hardened our heart and closed our eyes to the bigger picture. The plant is in crisis!

So I ask you all how much worse does it all have to get before we say enough is enough, we need to try something different, something that we haven’t tried before – as same old, same old isn’t working – we have been doing it generation after generation.

So how do we fix it?

I am not here to tell you how I think or feel we should fix the problem, but I can offer a suggestion: It is simple: One person at a time! Bring back the focus from ‘out there’ to ‘in here’. If we all start taking responsibility for the turmoil and hatred that we harbour deep inside of us, we can begin to make a difference. When we choose to accept and to look deep within at how we all contributed to the creation of the nut-jobs and the wackos we begin a new phase of human evolution. And the easiest way to do that is by putting ourselves into someone else’s shoes to gain compassion and understanding that we are all human – all scared little children in a big person’s body, chucking tantrums, pretending to be adults.

At the end of the day, what I or anyone else says is irrelevant. It is up to us as individuals to choose to take a long hard look at ourselves. It is up to us to choose to change ourselves and thus change the world. To take our blinkers off – before removing our neighbours’.

A Moment of Honesty

I am excited to share this about my life and what I have written and I’d love to hear your comments. Many may read this and feel it is depressing, and others will see something greater. Some may see or feel how this relates to them, but I say now that it relates to many!

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I have come to the realisation that we as humans are living life back to front. Much emphasis is put on achieving physical goals and sometimes spiritual growth, but none is being placed on Soul based development. I thought I was pursuing this until now! I see us all as neglecting to seek Soul based knowledge – and if our real self is our Soul, would it not make sense to want to learn more about who we really are (a Soul) rather than focusing on what is happening on TV or about buying that special car or diamond ring? Well I am interested, and so I write this for me.

I realise that personal Soul growth is most important and should be my no. 1 focus. If I imagine for a moment in a simplified manner that I, yes ME, as being the cause of what happens to or around me – then if I am angry (or any other emotion), then I am the one that has to look at that emotion. But instead of feeling through this anger I choose to either; punish myself or project it out onto others. I generally do this through blame, as blaming someone or something else other than myself is so much simpler, right? I blame others for how I feel. I make justifications for why I do these things, I also minimalize and deny it so that I can feel better about myself, totally removing all responsibility.

Oh how easy it is to blame others for how I feel and for what is happening to me or not happening. I feel much power from removing all responsibility for my actions from myself. This IS the fictitious world I have created around me, my façade! I live through this façade, oh how powerful and special I am. I can be anyone this way. No one has to know the real me. I can surround myself with people and things that keep the illusion going – a wonderful husband and a lovely life! I can even appear to be more loving, compassionate and caring, heck, I can be queen of my illusionary castle.

At the end of the day though (whenever that day is), I will need to face reality….and why do I have to? Because at that time the pain of my denial will be so great that I will call out louder than I ever have before. I will call and call and call! I will ask for someone, anyone, to come and rid me of the pain, a pain which I have created through my ignorance and arrogance. “Oh please won’t someone save me from my torment!” I call out to God. But the response is silence, but why, as I know God exists, which is more than most people. Again I cry out. Still nothing. Then I realise, even now I have not learnt my lesson. I am still waiting for someone to save me. I am still fooling myself as I have not changed. I still get angry, I still have emotions of grandeur, act out of addictions of purposeful ignorance, arrogance and wilful denial. So the pain continues, festers and grows.

It would have been so much more loving and easy way back when I was younger, but I was not aware of what I know now, that everything that happens to me is to trigger me and show me that I am denying God’s truth and because of that I create pain and darkness. It is time to take responsibility and not blame others for how I feel and what has happened to me. One day when I choose to open up my heart and feel the truth of the situation, I will find that the answer was always there, always trying to assist me – designed to assist me.

In time I will become weary of the pain and know that no one is coming to save me. I will in my last desperate attempt to call for help, I call for God again, and I wonder what will be different about how I call this time?

My reflection on my life will show me familiar things, but not in a way I have ever seen them and in a way that I had never conceived of seeing or knowing. I will now choose to be humble and feel the pain of what I have done through all of my erroneous beliefs. And right there and then I will realise that I have up until now, never opened my heart. I am asking from my Soul. Truth will flood in and for the first time I will know beyond doubt that God is real. I will feel the truth of how I have caused others pain, and the animals, the planet and myself. I will see that everything is about me, but not in a narcissistic way, but rather that my growth in light or darkness is up to me and that there is truth out there that I have been reluctant to notice until now. My openness and desire creates a connection with God through my sincerity to want to know His Divine Truth, and I will be certain that this is the only thing that will set me free. For this is the only gateway to Her Divine Love and the Divine Kingdom.

So – It begins and ends with me! What does this mean? It means that no one is coming to save me! No-one! I need to make the choice to be willing to save myself and not through the Willpower of the mind, but through the emotional Will of my Soul. And in this moment I realise that I have been the most honest I have ever been in my life thus far. So this story is not one of despair, but one of humility, a genuine sincerity to be real.

The Divine Connection

It’s been 4.5 years and I finally get it! Up until now I have been trying to do it my way. I have wanted to remain self-reliant rather than being God-reliant and I now know the difference. I am not yet doing it constantly but I now understand the process. I know what it feels like. I know that it isn’t scary when I involve God. I am still learning how to use my will to be more loving and feel my emotions as they happen. It is so easy to let my mind take over and listen to the thoughts which keep me repeating unhealthy patterns.

It’s also about raising your vibration so that you connect with higher guides so that the messages that do come through are clearer and more loving. There are many truths out there and if your guides are sharing information on other people or the universe than your connection is not with your higher guides. Higher guides will share information on God’s definition of love and God’s truth. Generally if you haven’t the desire to be more loving and learn what love is as God defines it, then you might not have any of these higher guides. Your guides are attracted to you through your desires, so assess your desires and you will then have an idea of why your guides are with you.

Raising your vibration is done through learning how to love yourself as God defines love. Hence I suggest developing a desire to love yourself and actively process through disharmonious emotions while being connected to God. My hint is to connect with God first and then process your emotions, not the other way around. And when you process, don’t look for words to describe what is going on with you. It is all about the sensation of what you are feeling and words generally don’t come into it.

Processing is the feeling of sensations – all emotions have a sensation. Fear, terror & pain themselves never killed anyone yet most avoid the sensations associated with them. When you learn to connect with God, you are safe to feel all of those sensations that make you feel uncomfortable. It is only your preconceived beliefs that hold you back from openly expressing the sensations of emotions at any given moment. On that note may I also state that they are not all deep, dark and intense!

Emotional processing is personal and other than God, you don’t need to involve anyone. It can be discrete and if you are accessing something deep then move yourself into a space where you can release it without an audience. If you are after an audience then you are not actively processing YOUR emotions. Obviously in some situations moving is not possible, however you can still actively process through the emotion(s).

So ultimately aspire to be connected to God 24/7. Process through the emotions whether joyful or not, notice what truths come through and the sensation of receiving God’s love. You will most likely have an “aha” moment or be in a state of calm. I still get blown away by how simple God’s truths are and remain in awe of them: I thank my guides, my friends, others who have helped me on my journey, God and also myself, for if I had not wanted to know God or myself in the beginning I would not be striving for a life filled with true love and boundless joy.

And for those that haven’t worked it out, that’s life without fear, pain and misery.

Which connection do you choose? I choose The Divine Connection.

Be All That You Can Be

In a world where few people are totally responsible for all of their actions, their behaviour, their safety or their impact on the planet it is easy to blame someone or something else for all of their foibles, shortcomings, weaknesses, faults, imperfections, idiosyncrasies, flaws, defects or what is happening to them– get the picture? To quit smoking, lose weight, be a better person, change a habit or give up an addiction – all it takes is self-discipline. It all starts with you and ends with you.

How many times do you hear people say,” I will when I gain self-confidence” or “when someone shows me”? They want someone else to motivate them, guide them and even do it for them so they can sit back reap the rewards. I’m not saying we can’t enlist the help of others at time to time, but to be aware when this become a habit.

Society is set up so that we give away our personal power and to keep us weak & dependent on the system and culture we live in. We are constantly deceived and being fed misinformation about life in general. We are sheep following those that herd us. It is so easy to listen and believe what others say rather than research the truth for ourselves. It’s easier for someone else to grow our food, make our clothes, create waste facilities and water systems. We create roles so that others cook, clean, iron or provide for us. It is easier to pay for someone else to do it and become dependent on them, yet when the system fails the blame falls on others. Self-sufficiency is lost from the modern western world. In this world of instant gratification, fast food and self-glorification, we as a society have become complacent.

Our potential to be the unlimited beings we have been created to be is quite achievable, but only if we start desiring to be fully responsible for ourselves. Self-discipline is required. It is easy to say “I can’t” or “I’m not good enough.” But right here and now I ask – why not? It also takes persistence. The beliefs, habits and life patterns that have been set up within us are in-ground and it may take time to change, but it will happen. It all depends on how much you want it!

Society has moulded me and I too currently fail at being responsible for myself totally. I have chosen however to focus my journey on becoming more responsible. No one in society can fully help me either as we all have failings. I myself have discovered that the only one who can truly help me is God. God knows me inside and out. Would it not make sense to ask and learn from my designer/engineer/creator personally? It makes perfect sense as I strive to “be all that I can be.”