Life in the Matrix

For those who have seen the movie “The Matrix” would agree with me that the Matrix itself is a fictitious construct and not the “real world”. The characters effectively “wake up” through desiring truth. But if you follow the rest of the story, it is one based on a struggle for survival – pretty much what they woke up from. So did they actually escape? Their truth changed but nothing effectively got better. To me it portrays life as being one fight after another! Does it have to be that way or is there truly a way out?

To the best of my ability, I will be using some computing terminology to illustrate my meaning. The Matrix according to me:

I believe the Matrix is the real world, it is our belief of how to live in it that is flawed. Simply, the Matrix is the world we live in through our belief systems and emotional state

The general understanding of life in the Matrix is a falsehood that has been passed down through the generations. Each generation teaching the next how to create and live within the Matrix thus adding to the deception. As soon as we are in the womb we automatically absorb the knowledge of the Matrix through the understanding that our mother has of it, through her own experience and that which has been passed down to her. We also absorb information from outside of the womb, from the surroundings of the Matrix itself and its inhabitants: So by the time we are born there is a heap of programming already within us as to what is expected of “Living in the Matrix”.

Our early childhood years is where more data enters us through being part of the Matrix and helps to reinforce the specifics of the program. As we get older we begin to live life through how we understand the Matrix works and start creating our life.

On top of that, we are oblivious to the fact that the Matrix has a Creator who lovingly designed it and had different intentions for the use of it. The Creator’s benevolence gave us all free will to do whatever we want in the Matrix (with our life), and a part of that was that the Creator would not (and does not) interfere with our decisions.

The Creator being the most loving of beings also wanted us to be happy and thus put in place laws to hopefully help us understand when we are doing anything to hurt ourselves, others and constructs within the Matrix: Acts that would cause unhappiness (pain and suffering) and show us the errors within the program. Unfortunately, most of us don’t see the warning signs: They start off subtly and gradually get more apparent, like a malicious virus corrupting more and more data files. Due to the generational data passed down to us, as well as our own choices and actions, our understanding of these signs is misinterpreted by us, distorted or overwritten by the numerous viruses within the Matrix.

The Creator ultimately created a (virus free) platform where we could learn about ourselves and other things within the Matrix and about love. The Creator also gave us the ability to choose to do whatever we wanted to: to live in the lie of our current understanding of the Matrix or to desire the truth as the Creator knows it: that our false thoughts, beliefs and unfelt emotions that are the virus; and that we can live without struggle.

How? We would have to seek out the Creator, to desire to know about living in truth – as the Creator does. But many of us won’t. Why? Because that would mean being willing to deconstruct ALL of the corrupted programming that we currently live our lives by, including our beliefs of who or what the Creator is. To let go of everything we believe is the purpose of the Matrix and how we live in it.

I’m game! . . . Are you?

Truth is Infinite

Every moment of the day we can choose either misery or happiness, love or hate, light or darkness. This choice either lifts our vibration or lowers it. The higher our vibration the more truth we have access to. Truth is as infinite as the source. Be hungry for truth as we are always able to learn more truth. Holding onto something that is truth for you today may not serve you tomorrow. .

Always strive to be better, to raise your vibration.

“For a man at the top of the giant oak can see more than the one standing near the roots”.

Live in it – as knowledge of truth is nothing until applied.

“You only truly understand something by sharing it with someone else until they understand it”.

Understanding Life

To me life is about finding Peace! It is about being calm and patient enough to connect with self (and to source).

I believe we all have a past that makes up the sum of who we are today. We all react differently to whatever life dishes out. We all interpret what happens to us in our own unique way. As in life also in death – I see now that everyone has a story, even “demons”.  That is why it isn’t about fighting our demons; it isn’t about fighting at all. It is quite the opposite. That being said, we can still stand up for what we believe in – without angst. I feel fighting stems from a lack of understanding. But to do that we must let go of fear and to desire to see things for what they really are.

In my own life I am becoming aware of how my childhood beliefs have carried through into my adult life. I am also becoming aware of the behaviours and unrealistic survival mechanisms I created as a result of these false beliefs. Once prudent for a child yet debilitating to an adult. I held onto these lies as though they were truth. Now when I become aware of one I consciously focus on it with intention to locate the cause. Some beliefs can be changed simply by replacing it with a new one, while others have an emotional core. I find it is through the constructive expression (or experience) of these emotional cores that allows the release, bringing healing of a higher nature. It is quite fascinating!

By choosing understanding, I choose to face the truth about myself. By making this choice I have also discovered that I have avoided many of the good things in life as well, such as joy, fun and abundance in all forms. It is not just about clearing the disharmony, but also allowing the harmonious to be part of my life. I now see more joy and wonderment in everything. I meet people who are happy and at peace with themselves and the rest of the world. I feel a sense of freedom as I breathe in a higher truth.

My journey is my journey and I don’t need to rush it. All I know is that I am moving forward in love through understanding. I have heard it said many times that it is about the journey and everyone’s journey is unique. It is about constant learning. There is no right or wrong, there just is! In this day and age there seems to a sense of urgency, everyone is in a hurry. There is little time for rest and quiet or solitude. I feel it is because we don’t ask enough questions about life. How can we at that pace! Question everything, including this! Does how you are living your life make sense? Does it really? Do your beliefs serve you or keep you imprisoned in a fictitious façade?

So to finish I would like to conclude that patience has many degrees, with many lessons and an even greater number of rewards. Choice is everything: we can choose understanding or ignorance. I personally choose to move forward in understanding. Anyone care to join me?

 

A Brush With Fear

In my early 20’s I lived in a remote area that still had punts or ferries as there were also known, at river crossings as there were no bridges. I had pulled up at the punt crossing in my car and noticed whistling coming from the engine bay and notice the temperature gauge registering it was overheating. I had just missed the punt so there would have been a 15-20min wait and I couldn’t ignore it. Luckily I had a 2 litre bottle of water with me, it was better than nothing. I had heard somewhere to leave the motor running so that the head won’t crack from the change in temperature so I left the car idle as I lifted the bonnet. In those days cars didn’t come with fancy covers to shield you from the spinning fan of the engine, so I had to take extra care with whatever I used to remove the cap as to it not catching and pulling my hand into the blades. As I listened to the high pitched whistling, my heart pounding and my chest ached as I breathed heavily. I was terrified, trembling and alone – with a 9 week old baby asleep in the back seat. I knew I had to do something or the engine would cook. I used a pullover and doubled it up and slowly twisted the radiator cap slowly tilting it away from me and waiting for the imminent spurt to thrust it out of my hands. To my relief there was only a small puff of steam and not the imagined gush of scalding steam and liquid. I proceeded to pour the water into the radiator and quickly replaced the cap as fresh steam streamed out. After closing the bonnet I returned to the driver’s seat, I sat there quiet and shaking. The whistling stopped and I silently sat listening to the humming of the engine at idle. I looked back at my son who was still fast asleep in the baby capsule. A sense of achievement came over me as I sat there patiently waiting for the punt.

Why do we have fear?

We have fear because we have preconceived ideas about the potential outcome because of something that has happened to us before or to someone else we know or because we saw it happen, read about it or were told about it by someone who heard about it, saw it, read it etc. Usually it happened once or in some cases, merely had the potential to happen. Even the fear of the unknown can come from other fears, hence the need to know all of the answers before taking action; some call it minimising risk and is the reason why we do so much planning for future events, sometimes to the “nth” degree.

Phobias are generally not about the item itself, e.g. spiders, snakes etc. If we trace it back through our life emotionally we will find that it was more likely to be the item that we associated with the traumatic event, one usually from our early childhood. Also there is generally no memory of this due to the trauma associated with it. With trauma is an element of terror. Terror is real in an emotional sense. It is emotion frozen in time and when it is accessed through some form of emotional clearing work it will be expressed at the age it was frozen. For example if you were sexually molested as a child, say 3 years of age, in most cases there is no recollection of it due to obvious emotional, physical and psychological trauma. The memory of it has been supressed and when accessed there will be shaking and trembling, possible screaming and crying as the emotion is experienced and released- as if we were 3 again. That was an extreme example, another one would be: you as a child playing with a daddy long legs or other spider or bug and having your mother hysterically shrieking at you in total panic about how it will hurt you. Can you imagine how distressing that would be for the 3 year old?

What is Fear?

Fear is: False Expectations/Emotions (and Beliefs) Appearing Real. When fear is present the truth of the situation at hand is warped and the automatic response is to go into defence mode. I believe the flight or fight mode is bred into us and is not part of our natural state.

I’d like to talk about fears that most people wouldn’t classify as fears. I’m talking about fear of being: wrong, rejected, embarrassed, shamed, let down, unloved, abandoned, alone, punished and failure to name a few. Want some more? There is also being: ignored, forgotten, misunderstood, unheard, silenced, unworthy, undervalued or invisible. I think you get the picture! When we have these types of fear we are generally living in the past.

In Closing

People constantly process the information around them through their own emotional filters. By information I am referring to everything that is seen, heard, touched, tasted and smelt. Every moment people perceive the world around them through these emotional filters. Over the past four years I have observed how fear dictates people lives, the choices they make and how that in turn puts limitations on what they do and don’t do in life.

I can talk about this as it is something I am always looking out for in myself and have grown from as a result. My observations include myself not just others; what I observe in others I turn around and look out for situations where I may have done the same thing or made similar decisions (inaction is also a decision). It is quite humbling and yet powerful at the same time.